Trust...
Yeah. It is an interesting situation, that happened to me lately. I — the person, who always make a certain calculation and intuitive analysis of any financial move, layed money from the bank on pretty bad conditions. And... You may ask, how it could happen to an intuitive person. The whole wonderful clue that I recognized today: my intuitive guides bumped me into this situation intentionally!
The thing I learned and practiced lately, speaking more in detail, my nervous and my energetic systems learned it, is trust. Trust is a mastery, if you was hurt in your childhood and you learned to survive and to cope alone with everything, an ability of authentic connection is probably not one of your strengths.
Since I made a mistake in my romantic friendship two weeks ago, I became more trust-aspired as ever before. Yeas, approximately two weeks ago. Anyway, as always, it was a part of the bigger picture. Today morning as I sunk in controlling fear 😇, I remembered a dream about this situation, that I saw on 14.March. In the end of the dream, which depicted an emotionally difficult situation, I landed in my childhood room. No wonder. Patterns, patterns. Worky, worky. Some of such days I loose a count of doing energy practices for trauma support and my EFT points literally hurt. I moved in my ability to trust my environment today. And I got it, what it was for. Trust! 🍀
No matter how much wounds I got from my early connections in live, I always believed to be in constant connection to everyone on this planet. Nevertheless, one part of me, it could not. It was always scared, it had to give, but never to receive. I had to care, but never allow yourself any weekness. It had to please, but never to disturb. It had to be strong, but never mistaken.
The thing I learned and practiced lately, speaking more in detail, my nervous and my energetic systems learned it, is trust. Trust is a mastery, if you was hurt in your childhood and you learned to survive and to cope alone with everything, an ability of authentic connection is probably not one of your strengths.
Since I made a mistake in my romantic friendship two weeks ago, I became more trust-aspired as ever before. Yeas, approximately two weeks ago. Anyway, as always, it was a part of the bigger picture. Today morning as I sunk in controlling fear 😇, I remembered a dream about this situation, that I saw on 14.March. In the end of the dream, which depicted an emotionally difficult situation, I landed in my childhood room. No wonder. Patterns, patterns. Worky, worky. Some of such days I loose a count of doing energy practices for trauma support and my EFT points literally hurt. I moved in my ability to trust my environment today. And I got it, what it was for. Trust! 🍀
No matter how much wounds I got from my early connections in live, I always believed to be in constant connection to everyone on this planet. Nevertheless, one part of me, it could not. It was always scared, it had to give, but never to receive. I had to care, but never allow yourself any weekness. It had to please, but never to disturb. It had to be strong, but never mistaken.
P.S. After some time I understood, the story was not beginning here. As everything in life it is a consequence and a beginning. In the last four years I was elaborating social exclusion experiences, regional events shock as well fear just to go forward. I never spoke it our somewere outside of my friend`s circle, I prefered never to mention my origin instead. Well, times rushe forward, today I am not scared to be myself anymore. I am pretty proud to be myselself with everything, that belongs to my story. All experiences, all locations, all international friendships. I could feel it on my skin some times ago already: We are humanity. We are children of the earth and stars! We should hold together. Then any separation is an illusion of mainstream view.
I build today a simple bot in Telegram, you are invited to support Stellardar, if you can only. Then if not, just enjoy available materials here without any guilt, since your energy alighned is the main present for me.
You can support our project by following us on social media as well.
With apreciation,
Aideen ⭐🌟🍀
I build today a simple bot in Telegram, you are invited to support Stellardar, if you can only. Then if not, just enjoy available materials here without any guilt, since your energy alighned is the main present for me.
You can support our project by following us on social media as well.
With apreciation,
Aideen ⭐🌟🍀
